I try to (on a daily basis) see that I have a relationship with my Higher Power (HP).
Yesterday, while volunteering at a coronavirus test-site, my HP gave me a new way of staying in 'conscious contact' and not going negative.
At several points while volunteering I would notice negative feelings about or towards myself or others. This was because of fear or because of frustration that things weren't going my way. I thought for a second and my HP revealed to me that when these 'negative' moments occur, that is really my HP saying "Hi" to me and advising me that my HP is there and present. So, instead of being scared, fearful, angry, frustrated, etc., I get to remember that my HP is using my current perceived negative situation to remind me that it's time to say "hello" to HIM. He's knocking on the door and I need to let Him in.
Having learned this, I then decided to pray for - instead of mentally attacking - people at the test-site or going into fear and sulking. I get to do this throughout each day and keep in conscious contact with my HP on a regular basis (even with my imperfections and all).
I know that I cannot fill the void that I was trying to fill with food, but I can let my HP fill the emptiness and imperfection of my humanity. God can do for me when I cannot do for myself and I get to have a great moment with my great HP at the same time.
Bill M.
